Babies!!!

So yesterday Tera and I gave our sister a baby shower. Hollie is schedule for a c-section on March 1st but she is already contracting. This makes Hollie's 4th child and she had absolutely nothing. But thanks to many great friends and family yesterday she has gotten a lot of things. Hollie also announced that she is naming the baby Malachi. Not even knowing that Malachi is even in the Bible.....So it was pretty cool one to be able to tell others what she was naming this precious baby boy but to be able to pray over her and Malachi at the shower just put a new connection between Hollie and myself. I have never prayed over any of my nieces and nephews with my sisters or brothers before. Also, I got to share what Malachi means and prayer over his life that he will live out his name and any generational curses be broken. Malachi is the last book in the old testament and means "my messenger." Which I thought was awesome..So God is good and it amazes me how God still lets you know He is at work in things that I have no control over but are so dear to my heart. I love my family even if we don't get a long all the time and some of us are so very different. They are still my family and I love them and thank God for them. I love being an Aunt and our family is continuing to grow as we speak...My younger brother Taylor is expecting this August as well....So more babies to come!

Love you guys and thanks for your prayers!!!!

Thanksgiving!

Thanksgiving was awesome..We had about 30 people at my moms and everyone brought food and it was just a good time to be around family and friends. We definitely missed Jamie but so thankful that I got to spend 20 great years with him. We all miss him like crazy but I will never forget the things he taught me...include riding a bike. But I am thankful for having a big family and even though there are different beliefs we are still a tight nit family and I love it. Very thankful for them and the promise I will continue to stand on for them. Me and my house will serve the Lord!!!!

It was also my 1st day back at Huddle House. I am picking up some extra shifts to get some extra money for the holidays! So the first night was a little slow but still made some good tips.

Here are some pictures from our Thanksgiving!

This is my little bros and me...

JJ she is getting sooo big!!!! This is my mini me :o)

Hailey and Me...She is a cutie...but hates taking pics

Fun Weekend

So this weekend Kristen and I ran off to Dawsonville to the outlet malls. We had a great time...We got there around 11 and didnt leave until 840ish....Needless to say we were very tired and our feet hurt...but we got some great deals and some gifts for babyshowers and Christmas!
Speaking of which....we might be getting a REAL Christmas tree!!!! I haven't had a real tree in forever!!!! So I am definitely excited...Hopefully we can find one for a good deal!

And today we had our pastor appreciation sunday....and it was a surprise! We didn't tell them we were doing it and people got up and shared words for them and it was just amazing! We have an awesome Pastor and his wife is just as amazing...I love them both very much!!!!

Also I went to a babyshower for Deborah Anne and it was so much fun! SS is getting bigger by the min and I can't wait to meet Hampton Cole in Dec!

I am definitely blessed to have sooo many great friends and family!!!


On another note....For some reason I have been lonely to be in a relationship and so ready to settle down and I was thinking how much I want to love someone and to be loved and spend time with that person and the Lord sooo flipped it on me...He told me Jessica now you know how I feel....I long so badly to be loved and to love on my children...Only if they let me. I want to have a relationship with you and them and I want you and them to spend time with me too....And my heart just dropped. How often do I set and dream about spending time with the person I will love when God (Abba Father) wants to spend time with me. The other day at church we talked about God being Daddy God and I have always known that God is our Father....But it clicked to me...I haven't REALLY had that kind of relationship with God as my Daddy....He wants to know how I feel...He wants me to talk to him as my Daddy....So I have a whole new outlook and relationship with God and I have to work on it but its amazing!!!!

I forgot to mention

I do need you guys prayers. My father had a stroke and he is doing ok...He is speech in a little impaired now but he has just had rough year. Last year someone tried to kill him and that was an awful experience. The same night I found that out. After dinner I went to my car and someone had done backed into it and of course....they left....go figure. I couldn't do anything but laugh...Because if I didn't I would have cried...But I know that Lord is continuing to teach me and help me to depend on Him more....I have always tried things in my own strength and sometimes that doesn't work....I have to learn that He is here to help...and to go to Him in all things....big and small....I was looking at a waterfall the other day....and if you know me water is one of my big things...I love the water and the stars....so relaxing but any who....I looked at the waterfall in awe of what God has made and I sensed the Lord laughing and it was like he was jokingly said thats small....I made that just to make you smile. And I was like just for me Lord and He said yes my dear just for you.....I get chills thinking about it. The Lord knows what we need when we need it....He is an awesome God....so even when things get tough....I know I can make it through with God's help....He has helped me sooo much so far and I couldn't make it without him!!! Lord I love you very much!!! What a mighty God we serve!

Lonely But Unlonely

So this week I have a lot of alone time and it was sort of lonely....I guess I have gotten so used to being around people I don't know what to do or how to act when I'm alone. But it turned out really great! I spent a lot of time with Lord and he spoke to me in so many different areas of my life. I def enjoyed His company this week. But I am thankful the team arrived safely home tonight and I'm back at home and my roomie is here :o) YEAH! But def want to keep what I've started with the Lord. Just a quick update. I also got my new glasses on Monday. Everyone seems to like them and I'm getting used to them. Here is a pic for ya!

God Speaks

I just thought this was awesome and felt like I should share! Its funny how when you least expect to hear from God, you do. The other night we were watching a movie called the Power of One. If you haven't seen it, you need to! Anyways, I didnt even know the title of the moving before watching it. Kristen just had said do you want to watch an African movie...since thats her heart and I said sure...Expecting to fall asleep because usually they are sad and I really didnt want to get my emotions all worked up before bed....well it happen anyways :o) For the ones who haven't seen it. I will give you a quick Jessica's version ;) The movie is about an English boy living in Africa way back when. Like Hitlers time. Anyways, it was about this boy trying to make peace and to make a difference in the lifes of the people who were being mistreated. And anytime we he wanted to run away or do something else. God showed him the things that he was doing was not going null and voided. For instance he was teaching a small group of africans how to read and write...and the police came in and had a big fight and all that jazz and the boy got discouraged and he was going to leave and he went to tell his friend and saw the people he taught how to read and right teaching many groups of others the same....So it was like a recharge....Ok so now your probably like well how does this relate to me....Im getting there....I have been praying about doing work in Haiti for some time and I had a thought come across my mind.....it was something like this.....well Lord how can I really make a difference...I am just one and they are soo many. I dont even know what I will do over there....I dont even know where to start...Can I...yes Me...really make a difference? And left it at that.... Well this movie said it all...there is a lot of power in 1! What we do can change lifes, destroy lifes, or even build them up. Plus I just got the feeling that its really not about me anyways! Its about what the Lord can and will do thru me. I will or can be the willing vessel He will use. I also came to the conclusion that I dont need to know the whole plan. As long as I have my eyes set on Him. He will lead, guide, direct, and provide for me. I just have to be willing..... So God is good. And I love how He speaks to me when I least expect it. Please continue to pray for me and the plan that the Lord has for me. I love you all! God Bless. Jess

I went to touch there lifes...instead they touched mine!

Dove's Eyes

Oh my where do I begin...things have been crazy. Work has been some what stressful and the gym has been a great way for me to release some of that. I have so much running thru my head on what the Lord wants for me to do and trying to have dove's eyes so that they are planted on Him and only Him. I keep getting distracted and trying to walk off course but I'm back on and hopefully will stay on for some while now.

I'm so ready to have a little family and enjoy that but can't rush things. The Lord has to stay in control of that and a very smart woman in my life told me today that the word has to come first then let the emotions come. If not it gets sticky. Oh boy is she right. Just from past relationships I've experienced...If I just didn't let my stinking emotions get involved I'd be alright....But you know me...rushing and driving head first in to everything....so I took a look today and cried my eyes out and finally realized that I needed to wait. Even if I did not want to...and it was the hardest thing ever! I hurt someone today that I really cared about.....but it was what I had to do. I pray that there will be a friendship still after all these years.....anywho....getting all emotional....

So yeh....Work is crazy...life is life...full of drama and waiting....Oh I forgot to mention that my sis is prego....She is having a lil boy. That makes 7 nephews and nieces! From my family and I still have some many that aren't really related but I claim them!!!!!!Crazy uh?!?! But I love being an Aunt...Theres nothing like it.

This is Carters 1st Bday pic taken on 9/20/2009(his bday was 9/19