So much has gone on the last two weeks....its crazy....I've always been known for family drama... yeh nothing to brag about but something I need prayer for. My Dad has a little time to live as well as my grandmother...my little brother is having some heart problems....work is a little stressful....and I'm sitting here as the world around me seems to be crashing down as I set and do nothing......slowly I see everything falling......every direction I look....then I wonder....what am I doing....what have I done.........and I've come up with nothing....completely unnerving. The most bubbly person you probably have ever met....now sadden....distressed....hurting...and lonely....I know your probably thinking ohhh boy she needs God. She needs to pray.....Well I am and have been but lets face it. You have to be honest and not cover things up...that's how they get worse. So I'm just simply asking for prayer....sometimes people need to be prayed for when they are weak....and right now.....I am weak. Emotionally...mentially...and spiritually.
Physically I am great....which its always been the other way around. I biked 15 miles on sat... 25 miles on Sun and did spin class this am....Thats the only thing I have right now that keeps me going. A lady that came to our church a few months ago told me to race and to get a bike and that I spinned. Which she was correct....she told me that racing would be a process of healing for me.....I believe she is right....Racing/riding is something for me...Something thats makes me feel good about myself...that I've actually accomplished something great....so I am going to continue to ride and believe that God has something greater in my riding then just racing....But growth and healing.
