I forgot to mention

I do need you guys prayers. My father had a stroke and he is doing ok...He is speech in a little impaired now but he has just had rough year. Last year someone tried to kill him and that was an awful experience. The same night I found that out. After dinner I went to my car and someone had done backed into it and of course....they left....go figure. I couldn't do anything but laugh...Because if I didn't I would have cried...But I know that Lord is continuing to teach me and help me to depend on Him more....I have always tried things in my own strength and sometimes that doesn't work....I have to learn that He is here to help...and to go to Him in all things....big and small....I was looking at a waterfall the other day....and if you know me water is one of my big things...I love the water and the stars....so relaxing but any who....I looked at the waterfall in awe of what God has made and I sensed the Lord laughing and it was like he was jokingly said thats small....I made that just to make you smile. And I was like just for me Lord and He said yes my dear just for you.....I get chills thinking about it. The Lord knows what we need when we need it....He is an awesome God....so even when things get tough....I know I can make it through with God's help....He has helped me sooo much so far and I couldn't make it without him!!! Lord I love you very much!!! What a mighty God we serve!

Lonely But Unlonely

So this week I have a lot of alone time and it was sort of lonely....I guess I have gotten so used to being around people I don't know what to do or how to act when I'm alone. But it turned out really great! I spent a lot of time with Lord and he spoke to me in so many different areas of my life. I def enjoyed His company this week. But I am thankful the team arrived safely home tonight and I'm back at home and my roomie is here :o) YEAH! But def want to keep what I've started with the Lord. Just a quick update. I also got my new glasses on Monday. Everyone seems to like them and I'm getting used to them. Here is a pic for ya!

God Speaks

I just thought this was awesome and felt like I should share! Its funny how when you least expect to hear from God, you do. The other night we were watching a movie called the Power of One. If you haven't seen it, you need to! Anyways, I didnt even know the title of the moving before watching it. Kristen just had said do you want to watch an African movie...since thats her heart and I said sure...Expecting to fall asleep because usually they are sad and I really didnt want to get my emotions all worked up before bed....well it happen anyways :o) For the ones who haven't seen it. I will give you a quick Jessica's version ;) The movie is about an English boy living in Africa way back when. Like Hitlers time. Anyways, it was about this boy trying to make peace and to make a difference in the lifes of the people who were being mistreated. And anytime we he wanted to run away or do something else. God showed him the things that he was doing was not going null and voided. For instance he was teaching a small group of africans how to read and write...and the police came in and had a big fight and all that jazz and the boy got discouraged and he was going to leave and he went to tell his friend and saw the people he taught how to read and right teaching many groups of others the same....So it was like a recharge....Ok so now your probably like well how does this relate to me....Im getting there....I have been praying about doing work in Haiti for some time and I had a thought come across my mind.....it was something like this.....well Lord how can I really make a difference...I am just one and they are soo many. I dont even know what I will do over there....I dont even know where to start...Can I...yes Me...really make a difference? And left it at that.... Well this movie said it all...there is a lot of power in 1! What we do can change lifes, destroy lifes, or even build them up. Plus I just got the feeling that its really not about me anyways! Its about what the Lord can and will do thru me. I will or can be the willing vessel He will use. I also came to the conclusion that I dont need to know the whole plan. As long as I have my eyes set on Him. He will lead, guide, direct, and provide for me. I just have to be willing..... So God is good. And I love how He speaks to me when I least expect it. Please continue to pray for me and the plan that the Lord has for me. I love you all! God Bless. Jess

I went to touch there lifes...instead they touched mine!

Dove's Eyes

Oh my where do I begin...things have been crazy. Work has been some what stressful and the gym has been a great way for me to release some of that. I have so much running thru my head on what the Lord wants for me to do and trying to have dove's eyes so that they are planted on Him and only Him. I keep getting distracted and trying to walk off course but I'm back on and hopefully will stay on for some while now.

I'm so ready to have a little family and enjoy that but can't rush things. The Lord has to stay in control of that and a very smart woman in my life told me today that the word has to come first then let the emotions come. If not it gets sticky. Oh boy is she right. Just from past relationships I've experienced...If I just didn't let my stinking emotions get involved I'd be alright....But you know me...rushing and driving head first in to everything....so I took a look today and cried my eyes out and finally realized that I needed to wait. Even if I did not want to...and it was the hardest thing ever! I hurt someone today that I really cared about.....but it was what I had to do. I pray that there will be a friendship still after all these years.....anywho....getting all emotional....

So yeh....Work is crazy...life is life...full of drama and waiting....Oh I forgot to mention that my sis is prego....She is having a lil boy. That makes 7 nephews and nieces! From my family and I still have some many that aren't really related but I claim them!!!!!!Crazy uh?!?! But I love being an Aunt...Theres nothing like it.

This is Carters 1st Bday pic taken on 9/20/2009(his bday was 9/19

Trip to Helen

So this past weekend I went on a trip to Helen with my best friend and her family. It was pretty nice. We tube down the river, flew in a helicopter over ruby falls (I was scared to death), and shopped in the cute shops. And no I don't have any pictures. I thought I put my camera in my purse and left it at home...I know shame on me. So unusual for me. But I had a great time!!! I got to ride on a motorcycle which is always a blast!

Change

So Ive been getting this word of Change for a while and I thought I knew exactly what it was talking about but so much can change but I want it to be what the Lord wants. I've been praying if its ok to date. Its been a rough road since well yeh you get the pic and I have been dating Jesus and felt like after all that I needed some time with just me and Jesus to get to know each other more and I have matured greatly and really got a good understanding of my Prince. So now I've decided to ask him if it ok for me to date again....I feel a peace about dating but I really don't want to play the dating game....Im just tried of that. I want to find the man God has for me and go on and live our life's together. I know thats easier said than done...but im ready to settle down with the one i love and enjoy life with him....I know a lot of yall would say Im young and have plenty of time, which is true and I respect your opinions and advice. But take in to fact that i am a lot maturer than normal girls my age and have experience and lived on my on a lot longer too.....but anyways...Im excited for this new season of change and cant wait to see what the Lord has in store for me.

Charlotte

So I've been in Charlotte training since Sunday and today Josiah and I got together and he decided to take me "up town" to eat and just walk around.....Well we meet up and he informed me that we would be taking the train....Keep in mind I never rode on a train before...at least of what I remember....so he def got a good laugh out of it...It was a cool experience....I love "up town" it was sooo much fun...we ate at a really good pizza place and then walked around and had some really good conversation! So good to finally catch up with him...Its been a while since he moved up here.....but the train ride was cool and I will be heading home tomorrow...yeah!!!